This is just a vent poem that I needed to write to help get some things off my chest.
Ever since I was little and was at school, I was teased for all sorts of things. It never changed over the following years when I attended high school etc. I was always made fun of, teased, taunted, bullied, singled out...by people who thought they were funny and cool, and who thought that they had some kind of right to treat me they way they did.
No one ever stood up for me, and I could never understand why I deserved to be treated the way I did. I thought that maybe I looked funny, or talked funny. Maybe I was some kind of "runt" and this would always happen to me, forever. I soon learnt that I needed to look out for myself and defend myself and fight all who had these issues with me, whatever they were supposed to be.
Of course though, if you fight back it only makes them worse. Eventually I left school, took up kick boxing and moved on with my life.
Now once again I've been faced with bullies, and I'm constantly reminded of what I experienced at school, all that time ago. It's hard to realize that I need to be the better person in those kinds of situations, and it's hard not to want to fight back and show them that I'm not a push over and that they can't treat me that way; that it's NEVER okay.
But I know now that no matter what they say to me, and no matter what I say to them, nothing will change at all because they don't think they're doing anything wrong and then again; if they do, they just don't care. So, I have to steel myself, and stay strong enough to show them that they can say whatever they want to, and they can try to do whatever they feel the need to do, but it's not going to affect me anymore, because I'm a nice person, and this is who I was created to be.
If people don't like that, then too bad so sad. This who I am. Take me or leave me, but don't abuse me. ~