Normally when things get full on in my life, I'm able to keep drawing to help me cope, but lately I just haven't had the drive to draw anything at all...WHICH IS HIDEOUSLY BAD because I have commissions to do.
So in all honesty, I don't think I've worked on anything for a good 1 1/2 weeks, so I promise to try and start again tomorrow <3
I feel like my problems with work just never end, and it makes me SO unhappy because I spend like...90% of my life at work .__. In any case, a document went missing in the office and my boss pretty much blamed me in very few words and then proceeded to tell me that I'm the least organized person in the office. =_= And I was like holy monkey balls have you SEEN your office?!
In any case, I've been applying for jobs at an extreme rate, because I just want to get the hell out! XD There's been a few good jobs that I've applied for, so I just have to wait and see now.
I got a call in regards to a job I applied for the other night, and the guy asked me a few questions, so hopefully he'll call me back for an interview!
I just want things to work out, I don't want to feel like I'm trapped here forever #_#
On top of that I've been dealing with personal feelings towards the whole "I'm Real, Are You?" event. I started it with a good heart and good intentions, but still I've had people telling me that I'm a bad person etc because I'm encouraging people to show their faces. :/ Well I know that I didn't force anyone to do anything, you guys all took part because it was something that you felt strongly towards. I'm also getting really sick of people who are so full of it that they say stuff like "Why would you kill yourself over someone you've never met?? I can't feel sorry for people who are dumb enough to do that." Like seriously? I WOULD LOVE to see how BIG those people will act when something like that happens to them >_< How dare they even say that? Has no one heard of the saying "If you don't have anything nice to say, don't say anything at all". There is no reason for people to say crap like that, none at all -___- Just makes me so mad!
And then, I'm having fake people shoved in my face ALL THE TIME! It's like ever since I started my event, they just seem to be popping up everywhere! Like seriously what the hell? What is WRONG with people? Do they think they can get away with being a fake and STEALING photos? Not a chance like honestly. =__= I will take the liberty of telling everyone that they are fake because that's what we should do, and encourage people to be themselves, because let's face it, you'll never be happier than when you are yourself. There's a sense of freedom that comes with letting go and being your trueself, so we should be helping people to feel the same way.
If you're fake and don't want to learn a lesson, then do us all a favour and crawl back into that hole you came from because things will only get a lot worse for you if you carry on down this path -____- That is all I have to say.
Also, I have noticed that a lot of you guys seem to be unhappy, which makes me sad too so please if you ever want to chat, I'm always around on Skype. Just note me if you want to add me <3
SO I AM TRYING REALLY HARD to get back into my happy-mojo-routine, just give me time. I have the Soundwave festival on Saturday, so I'm really excited! I've started planning my outfit and my hair and everything Would you guys want to see photos? I'm pretty much treating it as a chance to "cosplay", so I'm really gonna go all out :3
And um yeah, that's like it! Keep being the amazing people you are
- Drinking: Water
Thanks I hope so too. I'm sorry I haven't worked on your drawing .__.
Did you see the update where I had changed the hair? You never said if you liked it or not
Yeah, I like it! It looks much better. Been checking on it on and off so I had assumed you were taking a break from it to focus on other things.
Well I'm glad you like it this time X3 I'm really trying hard to work on it but I literally cannot even force a doodle out of myself .___. I just want to draw but I can't for some reason.
So no worries, take your time and unwind to the best of your ability. In the meantime, I'm already getting a few ideas about a next possible commission.
Oh really? Awesome I'd love to hear your ideas
Great to hear though, and the effort is most certainly appreciated there.
Yeah, sure! I could note you maybe.
I'm sorry to hear that <3 And yeah I'm actually exactly the same right now, except I'm kind of passed the point of crying and now I'm just numb. Which is also strange for me because I normally bounce back fairly quickly .__.
Thanks, and yeah I know, I've tried reporting people but so far DA don't seem to do anything about it >_<
I think the person who told you that has a total lack of empathy.
Keep it up, you will find a better job soon. Good luck and good vibes!
Obviously people who think that they are above everyone else because they haven't made a mistake like that..yet.
And I agree, the sad part is it's more than one person that's said it :/
Yeah exactly right, I totally agree with you <3
(Sorry my typings bad im on a phone atm
It always sucks when you lose your drive for doing what you love doesn't it, but it will pass and you'll get back in the zone.
Thanks <3 It's a lot to deal with you know? I had an anxiety attack like just this morning, and I've never suffered from anxiety..
I am applying for every job under the sun that shows up in my field of work so I'm trying <3
I'm really sorry I'm here if you wanna talk
whenever u try to do something big...there will always be people that will oppose
i know that doesnt make it easier
but you are a good person
you do inspiring work