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When Things Get Tough

Journal Entry: Tue Feb 18, 2014, 5:24 PM

Normally when things get full on in my life, I'm able to keep drawing to help me cope, but lately I just haven't had the drive to draw anything at all...WHICH IS HIDEOUSLY BAD because I have commissions to do.

So in all honesty, I don't think I've worked on anything for a good 1 1/2 weeks, so I promise to try and start again tomorrow <3

 

I feel like my problems with work just never end, and it makes me SO unhappy because I spend like...90% of my life at work .__. In any case, a document went missing in the office and my boss pretty much blamed me in very few words and then proceeded to tell me that I'm the least organized person in the office. =_= And I was like holy monkey balls have you SEEN your office?!

In any case, I've been applying for jobs at an extreme rate, because I just want to get the hell out! XD There's been a few good jobs that I've applied for, so I just have to wait and see now.

I got a call in regards to a job I applied for the other night, and the guy asked me a few questions, so hopefully he'll call me back for an interview!

I just want things to work out, I don't want to feel like I'm trapped here forever #_#

 

On top of that I've been dealing with personal feelings towards the whole "I'm Real, Are You?" event. I started it with a good heart and good intentions, but still I've had people telling me that I'm a bad person etc because I'm encouraging people to show their faces. :/ Well I know that I didn't force anyone to do anything, you guys all took part because it was something that you felt strongly towards. I'm also getting really sick of people who are so full of it that they say stuff like "Why would you kill yourself over someone you've never met?? I can't feel sorry for people who are dumb enough to do that." Like seriously? I WOULD LOVE to see how BIG those people will act when something like that happens to them >_< How dare they even say that? Has no one heard of the saying "If you don't have anything nice to say, don't say anything at all". There is no reason for people to say crap like that, none at all -___- Just makes me so mad!

And then, I'm having fake people shoved in my face ALL THE TIME! It's like ever since I started my event, they just seem to be popping up everywhere! Like seriously what the hell? What is WRONG with people? Do they think they can get away with being a fake and STEALING photos? Not a chance like honestly. =__= I will take the liberty of telling everyone that they are fake because that's what we should do, and encourage people to be themselves, because let's face it, you'll never be happier than when you are yourself. There's a sense of freedom that comes with letting go and being your trueself, so we should be helping people to feel the same way.

If you're fake and don't want to learn a lesson, then do us all a favour and crawl back into that hole you came from because things will only get a lot worse for you if you carry on down this path -____- That is all I have to say.

 

Also, I have noticed that a lot of you guys seem to be unhappy, which makes me sad too so please if you ever want to chat, I'm always around on Skype. Just note me if you want to add me <3

 

SO I AM TRYING REALLY HARD to get back into my happy-mojo-routine, just give me time. I have the Soundwave festival on Saturday, so I'm really excited! I've started planning my outfit and my hair and everything :) Would you guys want to see photos? I'm pretty much treating it as a chance to "cosplay", so I'm really gonna go all out :3

And um yeah, that's like it! Keep being the amazing people you are :tighthug:



  • Mood: Tired
  • Drinking: Water
Skin by HanyouInny (modified by VonDiezyl)
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Bowser81889 Featured By Owner Feb 21, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
I certainly do hope that you feel better soon.
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VonDiezyl Featured By Owner Feb 25, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist

Thanks I hope so too. I'm sorry I haven't worked on your drawing .__.

Did you see the update where I had changed the hair? You never said if you liked it or not

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Bowser81889 Featured By Owner Feb 25, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Ah, my bad, I could have sworn I had. :O Sorry about that.

Yeah, I like it! It looks much better. Been checking on it on and off so I had assumed you were taking a break from it to focus on other things.
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VonDiezyl Featured By Owner Mar 12, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Hah that's okay :)

Well I'm glad you like it this time X3 I'm really trying hard to work on it but I literally cannot even force a doodle out of myself .___. I just want to draw but I can't for some reason.
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Bowser81889 Featured By Owner Mar 12, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Yeah, I noticed your journal from late February saying you were taking a few weeks to a month off or so to do other things and see if you were able to get back into the groove again. Like Gerry that old artist guy from Toy Story 2 said..."You can't rush art!"

So no worries, take your time and unwind to the best of your ability. In the meantime, I'm already getting a few ideas about a next possible commission. :)
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VonDiezyl Featured By Owner Mar 12, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thank you for being so understanding ♡ I feel like crap for not getting anything done :/ i will try a little harder though I promise :)

Oh really? Awesome I'd love to hear your ideas
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Bowser81889 Featured By Owner Mar 12, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
We all have times like that. I barely uploaded anything substantial last year myself aside from random doodles and photo manipulations when I typically do art projects a lot more in-depth than that.

Great to hear though, and the effort is most certainly appreciated there. :)

Yeah, sure! I could note you maybe.
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EseMenace Featured By Owner Feb 20, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist

pinche mentiroso.

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VonDiezyl Featured By Owner Feb 20, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I have no idea what that means XD
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EseMenace Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist

oh it just something forwards the h8ers xD

en espaņola y con en lingo...

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